Friday, January 05, 2007

Gettin' it all over with

It's been a hard week. We're still trying to get stuff figured out with the wreck and all. We weren't sure when we were going to even get our van back, but our insurance is stepping up and paying for the repairs while they duke it out with the other lady's insurance to reimburse them. So that's good.

But Marc-Adam woke up screaming the other night an hour after I fed him. I tried to feed him again, but he acted like he couldn't get comfortable, so I took him to bed with me and he still wasn't happy. I tried for 3.5 hours to settle him and he just wouldn't settle down. Not like him at all. I called to talk to the nurse. I couldn't tell her much beyond something just wasn't right. I think she was getting ready to tell me to call back if he had any real symptoms, but I decided to follow my gut and make an appt with the doctor. I got him in that afternoon. Turns out he has a bad ear infection. Doctor said she hasn't seen one in a baby this young in a long time. Poor baby. He's just now starting to act more like himself. It broke my heart to see him feeling like that.

And I'm just overwhelmed with the kids. Zachary's in the terrible 2s, and I don't know what's going on with Stephen. He's getting really hard to handle. I'm trying so hard to be what they need and to make sure they're all getting positive attention, but it just doesn't seem to be enough. I spend so much of the day in prayer and tears these days. I've been in survival mode since Marc-Adam was born and I thought I'd be way past that at this point. And Sweet Hubby's having a hard time at his work...he's feeling overwhelmed, too, so I'm trying to support and encourage him, as well. I'm not feeling like the wife and mom I want to be. I don't want to spend too much time in survival mode because where's the joy in that?

I'm just hoping we're getting all this unpleasant stuff out of the way so that we can have a really awesome year, like I've been hoping for.

1 comment:

LaughterThoughts said...

I've always seen that my kids **almost drive me crazy** go through ornery phases after a new baby... it's usually not right away but a few months later. It's an adjustment thing, I think... and it will pass. Just stay consistent and try not to let it overwhelm you too much... it's hard stuff though, I know. Especially when you're tired and hormonal and stretched... physically and emotionally.

I know you've been there and you know all that, but I know that I'll forget for a while and wonder what on earth has happened to my child and where is all this emotion and craziness and attitude stuff coming from.

I understand the stress with the van and the insurance stuff. I was in an accident (which ultimately led to the birth of #4 the following morning!)and there were definitely some headaches with dealing with insurance and transportation and all that stuff. ugh.