Thursday, June 29, 2006

When Hormones Attack

*sigh* It's been a rough couple of days. I've not been in my normal upbeat, optimistic, lovin' life mood. I'm sure it's a combination of things....a 3 year old who has suddenly--for the first time in his life--decided he doesn't want to sleep...ever. Sleep deprivation from said 3 year old waking me up all night long because, apparently, he doesn't want me to sleep either. And hormones. Blessed hormones. The things that can turn any molehill into a scary mountain...that usually makes me cry. I just want things to go back to "normal". Normal's not always perfect or even fun, but it's my normal and I liked it. I want naptimes back since I feel I'm teetering on the fence between normal pregnancy fatigue and narcolepsy. I want to enjoy my kids again instead of feeling like I'm constantly barking at them. I want to feel like doing stuff again. I want to not feel like a monster when I'm up for the third time (before 2am) when Stephen wakes me up and my tone has seemed to reach a new octave. And speaking of being up in the middle of the night...I don't want to do that either unless I'm feeding a baby instead of "reasoning" with a preschooler. I want my evenings back with my husband and a full night's rest again. And it's at this point where the hormones kick in and make me feel like things will never be "normal" again....that I'll never be nice again, that I'll never enjoy life again, that I'll never sleep again....on and on and on.

I know I'm blessed....I always remind myself of that. But for some reason (probably back to those silly hormones again) that just isn't making me feel better right now.

Ok, whine over. For now.


ksl said...

I hear ya, Sista! My boys are big into the "I can't go to bed I need to pee again, I'm thirsty, My blanket is to cold, my ears itch" and my favorite is "I am afraid of my toys."

I have those days, too. Lack of sleep and cranky kids will do it to you every time. I knew a lady who could tell you to the day when her two year old would start kindergarden. To bad us homeschoolers don't have that to look forward to, huh?

I hope you get a nap today.

k said...

Bless your heart, darlin', I can certainly sympathize. I used to say that I could do ANYTHING I had to do during the day if I could just get a decent night's sleep. And of course, I usually didn't. When you're so groggy that you don't think you can make it through the day, it doesn't help that "someday" you may sleep again. But, HEY! I sleep good every night now!! :-) (I won't say how many years it took to get to this point!)